There is no word to describe how I am feeling, there’s a bunch of words that hit close to, but not close enough. I don’t know if anyone will understand or just sympathetically lend a ear to be thoughtful, not understanding. Yesterday was a chaos of emotions and I dread that they’ll have a negative influence in the future. I’m scared. I’m depressed. I’m frustrated. I’m confused. I’m hurt. I just want him to lay beside me, reassure me that everything’s alright, whisper in my ear that he loves me and kiss me on the lips, and let us lay cuddled together in silence listening to one another’s breathing. It’s a wish so simple, yet so complicated.. For I am here, and he is there.